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Shell-Shocked: Ukraine's Trauma

Dear Steve...

I need to talk to you.

I need you to know that I'm not mad. I never was and never will be. I can't be mad at you like you wanted. It was to make it easier, I know that. But this...what happened with us, not talking, is worse. I know I should just be an adult and talk to you, but then...then it will be real.

I want my friend back more than anything, but I can't even think about you without dreaming. I dreamed of living with you. I dreamed of a future with children and happiness and love like I have always wanted. I dreamed of showing you off. I dreamed of having dinners with your family and mine. I dreamed of having brothers. I dreamed of Christmas together, enjoying all of it. I dreamed of nights in cuddled on a couch or walks through the snow. I dreamed of you. Nothing but you and the plans you made.

But I have to stop dreaming. I have to stop hoping that you will be standing on my door step. I have to stop dreaming that you will just show up at class and just hug me like nothing happened. I have to stop hoping that you will see me and just want me. I have to stop seeing you at the movies and places we had gone. I have to give up on the promises you made, even the small ones. I just have to give up.

I have to give up...give up on you. And it feels damm near impossible! I need to walk. I have to take that last step and just stop feeling like I'm tied to someone. I don't want to be weak. I don't want to cry over you. I want to love you. I want you...but I have to move on. I have break the glass and see it is nothing more than a dream. It was something that was never going to work...And I should have known that.
 

You were never mine after all.

Hot Water - Simon's Cat

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Exaustion

I'm tired...

I'm tired. I am just so tired. I'm so tired that I just don't want to do anything any more. I am too tired to draw or write or even read! I'm too tired to read!! I'm too tired to do one of the simplest pleasures in my life. I own enough books to start a small library of young adult fiction and I'm just too tried to read any of it. ANY OF IT!

I'm tired of school with its people just wanting to learn and its teachers teaching. I'm tired of watching people love some one and enjoy the time that they have with them. I'm tired of not having a job and no one needing me for anything because I have no experience. I'm tired of talking to my mother about how I feel and just having her look at me all sad and guilty. I'm tired of her sad looks and pushy "I just want to help". But its not helping. Its not helping at all!

I'm tired of hiding my feelings becasue no one wants to hear them. I'm so tired. Im just....I'm just soooooo tired. Why it that such a horrible thing? Why dosen't writting it down make me feel better? Why am I so tired? Why?! Why can't I just sleep and feel better! WHY!!

I just want to leave. Is that so horrible? Is it horrible that I want to leave my happy loving home whithout even a note? I know what I would take. I know what I would need. Is that so bad? Is it so horrible! I love my momma and my dad. I love my home. I love that I feel safe and they want me here, but...

I just don't know if I can stay here.

Solar FREAKIN' Roadways!