I have turned to the green eyes.
I have come to the understanding recently that I am jealous. I am jealous of other people and what they have that I don't.
I am jealous of those who find jobs so easily in this crappy economy. I don't understand how they can gain a job that they are so under qualified for and yet keep it. I won't say that I may be more qualified or anything like that but I fell that in some cases it is true. But who else wouldn't say that when someone who is 45, works at McDonald's who has to think of how to make change what person wouldn't?
I am jealous of those who don't have class anymore.Why do you have to go to college? I just got out of 12 years of schooling only to just go through four more years. It sucks! I just want a career and a life outside of a classroom.
They call to me in the night.
I am jealous of those who have true dreams. There are so many who have dreams in their lives. So many who reach for the stars and actually touch them. My dreams... To be honest there are days I wonder if I ever really had any. Maybe the dreams that I do have aren't even mine but what I believe I should have?
I am jealous of people who have lovers. Every where I look now has people in relationships. They kiss, hold hands, and just spend there time together. And every time I just turn green. I hate that everyone has this experience. Why can't I have some one? Why is it so hard to find another person? What is it that these people are doing that I'm not? And as if to make it worse, all of my flatmates flaunt there boy toys every night around here. And they wonder why I don't want to watch movies with them.
The emerald orbs are a wonderful beauty.
